Regrets

At this point in my life, I don't think I care about what other people say about me any more.  It's irrelevant.  They can shove their self-righteous advice up into their ass.  You see, they are so fucking dumb and egoistic, they don't even know what their problem is.  They think they had live far more years than you have, they could judge you and all of a sudden give you the best fucking judgement and advice, fuck you.  Trust me when I say this is not an angry rant, it's more than that.

Regret would be the one thing that I do not want to feel in years to come, knowing that there are things that I could do to reach my goals or certain stuff I could do to make things better and NOT do it.  That would suck ass!  Everyday I watch people on the streets, people I see on television, I somehow wish that I had led a better lifestyle.  Life is too short to lead other peoples life.

I'm sure some of you had seen that hottest girl, the best sports car and you wonder if you could own one of those.  I'm not sure about you but I know I did, everyday.  The simplest solution is to get over there and do what you need to do and get it.

I know for sure I want to lead a life full of pussy!  There you go and I said it like a true man with my real intentions!  Please stop pretending and for a second think this is vulgar.  You know what I'd say to you. "FUCK YOU!"  You hypocrite son of a bitch.

One day I will look back at this blog and read every post that I've written from the day I started all this, I know for sure that I've done what I can to realised that dream.  No regrets.

Hello World

Hello World,

Here I am sitting here and telling you how my life suck balls.  Sometimes I do wonder what my life would be if I have never gotten into the plane. I have a strong feeling that my life will suck more balls if I compare it to now.  Probably skipping classes like I always do, always busy doing some other shit and not paying attention to more important stuff.  Probably still suck with women and have this fake superficial confidence.

The choices that we made in life will define us.  We are what we so choose to be.  I do believe that there isn't so much about right or wrong but how we deal with the consequences of the choices that we made.  To quote Hank Moody, "Life will kill you".

Life is tough.  I'm pretty sure a lot of you guys out there aren't happy with how things are currently looking.  Fear not for you are not alone.  I wouldn't complain. to be fair, I have it better than most people but once in awhile you just want to trash talk about your boss over the Internet.  So what? Sue me!  I guess that what makes me a human.

No matter what kind of life we may lead, just remember one thing, no regrets.

Random and then some

This blog seems to be a place where I let off my steam most of the time.  I always thought this is going to be a place where I'm going to put up FR and stuff but for the past one year, Most of stuff up here are mostly my thoughts on PU and bullshit in life.  Kinda depressing actually.

I'm so tired, mentally and emotionally.  I always felt like giving up, but at the same time I have this ego in me that prevents me from becoming a douche-bag!  I have been on the journey of becoming a better person, trying my very best to improve every aspect of my life.  I have never been more proud of myself, I have never been so persistent in my life that I consciously putting in effort to improve my being for 365 days, never!!  My attention span is pretty short and to put so much effort and to persevere for a year is astonishing even to me.  I dare say I surprised myself.

Of course the outcome is sweet after one year, look at me now, I look healthy, I speak more calmly than ever before, more confident in my body language, more aware of myself and not afraid to take a beating any more.  I'm a big pussy when it comes to fight and pain so I took the challenge and faced my fear, I took MMA classes and now I'm in love with the sport, been into it for 7 months now and still going strong, been hurt twice in the ribs and yet I still came back for it.  It's a big credit to Johnny Wolf and J.T Tran.  "To be the man of her dreams, first you have TO BE the man of her dreams!"  

Now here's the dilemma, I'm still a sucker in dating!!!

So fucking frustrated.  YES! I'm blaming myself, who else could I blame right, I mean I know for myself one of the reason for not getting the result is because I'm not approaching!!!!

I'm actually feeling the anger right now while I'm typing this shit.

I honestly HATE to say that I haven't done enough, I mean I took lessons in dance, improv class, martial arts, read books and more and that took energy, time, money, blood and tears!!! for a year!!!!

But why does it have to come down to that fucking approach

I hate the dating industry in a way because they took advantage of vulnerable men!

I wouldn't say I was one of them but i know I wasn't happy with how the bootcamp was run

I'm not a difficult person to be around with but sometimes I feel people just want to fuck around with me,  For example, my tattoo artist, this guy, I tried to be a good customer, compromising, and im the one who has to accommodate him, to be fair it should be the other way around.  I'm serious person when it comes to serious matter, and to showed him i was serious, i paid my deposit and stuff and now still in the process of getting the art work done, I don't know man, is it me or what

It has been a tough few weeks for me and I'm felt sorry for myself for not getting the results that I want even after all this effort and I'm sorry that you have to read it -if anyone is reading at all-

Since last year, I have never believed in hope, hope is for fools waiting for miracles to happen.

But now I hope things would be better in the future

Lone Wolf, can you take it?

It is times like this that reminds you of the reason you have a blog; it's to spill out your guts to the world, things that your friends wouldn't care or maybe things that you are too scared to share with your friends and family.

For the past few days I've been torn between 2 choices; to leave or not to leave.
Seems pretty easy but it's not. I think making choices is got to be one of the hardest thing mankind had to do.  To many of us, like myself we are afraid of the outcome from the choices that we made.  To be really honest, I'm scared of going back, the whole starting over and leading a different life, it's a little scary.  Despite all this drama, I know deep down inside this is one journey home I have to make.

Stuffs are scattered around the room, a messy scene.  Card box, plastic bags, suitcase, mineral bottles, papers and documents are the among the "rubbish" that are on the floor.  I'm actually packing all my stuff now and to prepare for the big farewell.  Well, I still have 4 months before I leave, at least that was the plan but like all plans, it well never work.  Because I know how lazy I am and how good I can procrastinate, I've set October 5th as the day! 

There are some loose ends that I need to tie such as selling of my beautiful Toyota Corolla 99 and cancel insurance on that car.

Oh, I'm getting a tattoo soon, and it's one long story, one which I will post it up soon!

That's all for now
Jimbeam

Ego, everyone has this, so do I

Hey, I've just realised something important.
One of the many reasons why I have not written any new post for the past couple of weeks or even months is because  I wanted to put up something nice, something which will make you guys go crazy and come back for more post, in another words, I was feeding my fucking EGO!!

I wanted to only post FR's that I have done good and have some decent close to it, which in reality, I had not done any so hence, no post!
You see, its a EGO thing!
So I ended up not approaching at all and no FR's after that and the vicious cycle continues and you go back to the same old lazy bump that you are, well I mean me.

I have to man the fuck up and start posting failures from now on and start working on my sticking points.
To be honest, been lazy for 2 weeks, no approaches, no game, no nothing.

So today, I broke the cycle and went out to approach, well it didn't went well, I had like 45 minutes of free time, went out to town and I just couldn't bring myself to approach.  I would have easily approach 3 hot girls today, not proud of myself, not proud at all.

This podcast certainly help bring out the whole ego issue thing and King Kong is definitely the man, look to him.

By the way, Kong is from the YouTube sensation, SimplePickup

Great stuff to learned from

insomnia? and wing man

Right now it is 7.40AM and I can't sleep.  So I thought I would humor myself by writing a blog only wearing my underwear.

Today was Sam's birthday so we went out to town last night to celebrate his 24th with Mad.

Had good fun, that's for sure.

Before this I was not a smoker but now, I do

It is not something that I'm proud of but you have to do what you have to do.

To smokers out there, you have no idea how good it is as a crutch.

I, for the first time, actually lost count how many sets I've opened last night with the help of a cigarette, well, not one but five.

To non-smokers, don't do it if you don't want to.  I know it's rubbish to say this in the first place.

This post is going to be a lot of bullshit and rambling so just bare with me while I'm writing and fighting hunger and insomnia at the same time.

Okay, I've just got a topic that I could ramble about : Wing Man

This is going to be my personal opinion and by no means a generalization of what it means to be a good wing man.

You probably heard or read this from top gurus out there (I heard mine from Savoy's audio)

Wing man can make you or break you, which is so true.

I would say a good wing man is a friend whom you have known for quite some time and I really meant friends not "sarging" patners -which I personally think is dumb and overated-

A true friend knows you personally and that could help you in a long run when you have him or her (in my case is a HE) trying to help you score.  The keyword here is being genuine -credit to Rob Judge-

I feel winging someone is not as easy as it sound, it's more than that, you really must know what you are doing and you must have a good "chemistry" with your friend and the other thing, you don't even have to worry about your wing man cock blocking you, which is always a bonus :-)

When I first started I stayed away from having a wing and also not winging others because I know where I am in terms of my skill.

This is just my two cents, if you want a wing man by all means do!

P/S: Treat your friend like a friend, not just a wing man

JimBeam

I approached, I should be Happy but I'm not

Reading blogs from David and Sasha did make a difference, one of those thing is reminding me not to just sit around while knowing there someone like David is taking all of your girls.  If David's AA is as terrible as Sasha had mention then I would say David did a great job handling the anxiety and bust through it and took numbers.

I've been in the community for nearly a year now and it took me awhile just to get numbers and most of the time... well, 95% of the time, it's flake.

You see, today I took action and approach a beautiful woman.  If I could say, by far the most attractive lady I've ever approach, this is what I call quality (I don't rate women with numbers, is not right)

Approach her at Tesco today.  DIRECT!

Ok, here's the problem I think I've figured it out.

When we say Direct, how direct did you go?  How direct was I when I told her that she was attractive.

Should I have push even farther even knowing that she got a boyfriend?  Like getting her number

Should I keep pushing and tell her that we should meet up again for coffee soon?  Does that sound pushy and creepy?

In all honesty, I'm really frustrated.  Been doing this for nearly a year and yet no real results, and when I say results, I mean getting laid, does not matter is it from cold or warm approaches.

Did I improve since I first started?  YES, of course I improved.  A LOT!! Definitely positive change.  Changes from lifestyle to communication skills (even my brother realised that I speak better grammar!) but not in my dating life!!

Yes I can definitely approach beautiful woman and tell them they are cute/attractive/adorable but that is as far as the conversation goes.  I mean after some small talk I mean.

I asked myself this today and the question has been stuck in my head for past couple of hours.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME???!!

I don't know, I honestly don't
I'm so tired mentally, spiritually, emotionally and physically
So tired.....

You know what I've figured out, I think I'm a pussy. that's why
Maybe after going direct, I should just push and tell them "I really wanna fuck you"

God Bless Your Soul
JimBeam

Whoa, this guy read my mind

Okay, I admit I'm an info junkie, there you go!
I browse through a few of the blogs  that I'm following and came across Captain Jack's.
If I remember correctly he did this programme called Game Dynamic Mastery and one of his students wrote a testimonial e-mail here.

This guy had the same issue as me, not having fun going out, it felt like a chore.  Which really does suck donkey balls.

You can read it in this post

Jimbeam

Different type of stretches

Warm up and stretches are one of the most important things to do before you proceed into a more vigorous activities such as martial arts.

I always knew there were different types of stretches but never knew what it was.

So, there you go, a link to different stretching routines

Tricks Tutorial

Have a nice day

Jimbeam

I want it so badly because they say I couldn't have it

Greetings

Today for the very first time, I look myself in the mirror and told myself how far I have come.

To compare now and the person I am a year ago, woooaah... massive change.

It's funny how time flies so fast that none of us actually realised it, till this very moment I still can't believe a year has gone by since I first started getting into seduction community.

It's crazy because of my lack of faith in myself, I tend to see things in short term and not seen the bigger picture.

I would always compare myself today and yesterday not knowing that I have actually progress so far not just in pick up but as a person, as a man.

One thing Sam brought up that really resonates in my mind, the lack of faith I have with pick up.

Honestly, I never really thought about it.  I mean I thought I was giving it my 100% believe in the system, I've been reading and learning and practising.  I have tonnes of faith with pick up.

And then it struck me.  It was the lack of faith in myself.

I am sure many of us are info junkie, and I'm pretty sure many of us came across the phrase "not caring"

Me and Tom met up with Sam last night, it was student night, loads of people around.

I just wanted to hang out, have a few drinks and no expectations, just have a good time

Which I did and if I can be honest here, this is the first night in bar that I actually enjoy myself.

Yes the first time in a year since I learn the game.

By not caring!

Guess what?

Approach 3 sets and every set was good!!

We had so much fun, time just flies.

I always go into bars with goals and mission and I always ended up anxious and nervous thinking that I have to complete the mission.  So much thinking that I eventually shoot myself in the foot before I even get into the bar. My head is so full of bullshit I couldn't have fun and ended up not doing a single approach.

Some guys are more on a competitive side and they have this check-list to do.  To be completed for the night.  That is fine.

But for those who do not believe in missions, don't be afraid to go in there not expecting anything, just have fun, that's the least you could do for yourself after putting so much work and effort into learning all this.

Approach Anxiety will always be there for me even after one year and it's different for other people as well.  But looking back I know that I have come a great distance.

Have faith in yourself, believe that you are special and put in the work

Hopefully this post can get you guys started or if you are in the game for some time, help you to re-evaluate yourself and see where you are in your journey to self improvement

Be the Best

Jimbeam

Simple Pickup

Thanks to Ben Efsaneyim and Alpha Asian

That Asian dude is awesome, my favourite





This video really help change the way we see things, this is great

You Wouldn't Believe It!!

Hey guys! What's up? Okay, I know I've been gone for quite some time so I'm going to update whatever I can into this.

Right, first off I have achieved 2 out of my 3 new year resolution, hurray!!!!  I have never did this before so I'm really proud of myself.

My 3 resolution was
i) Learn self-defence and MMA - DONE!
ii) Learn Salsa dance - DONE!
iii) Improv class - Pending

So right now I need to get this improv class going before it is too late

One thing that I've regretted is I should have started Salsa ages ago, trust me you totally love it.
One thing for sure it's gonna help you make new friends, and trust me there are some hot girls as well, okay aside from beautiful girls, you learn how to dance and how to touch a woman properly and trust me there are tonnes of touching around (please, don't go there LOL)

One of the main reason I was there in the first place is I wanted to learn how to touch a woman properly, obviously because I'm still a virgin and yes I have not been in a relationship before so touching to me is something which is really hard for me.  I would get so nervous I would shake or the right word "vibrate".

But I learned more than just touching the right way, but learn how to dance and one thing for sure Salsa is going to help in pick up as well.  Effectively, Salsa teaches men to lead and that's why we are here in the first place well for me at least, I was beta and now I want to be Alpha and I want to lead, be a man!

Martial Arts is another area for me to improve myself as a man.  I just need to get my testosterone level pumping.  I would totally give credit to Johnny Wolf on that, I would say I'm following his foot steps.

I've come this far and I will not go back

It has always been about us,
Jimbeam

bruised rib and salsa dancing?

First day of Chinese New Year!! Gong Xi Fa Cai to all my brothers and sisters out there.  What's better than to start the day with a bruised rib.

Sparing with my instructor, Steve and got one hell of a body shot to my left ribs, and that was it, kneeling on the floor with one hand pressing the rib and the other supporting myself on the floor and the only thing that came out of my mouth at that time was, "YEAH!!!!!!"
I was pretty excited to be honest and yes training in martial arts do get you hurt and I know this is just one of the many to come in the future which I'm not looking forward to.

Ok, I was suppose to do salsa dance with Tom today, well , part of pick up (Yes, I did not forget about PU)
Unfortunately, the class was moved to another day so had to wait till next week for the Thursday class, which I'm really looking forward too
For me ultimately, I just want to learn how to touch a woman and be comfortable with it and I hope salsa will help me do that and of course to learn some awesome moves as well

I'm not proud with my progress in PU to be honest but I know I will push through it no matter what.  Doing MMA and salsa dancing are part of learning to become a better man, a lifestyle

If I have to say, I think Johnny Wolf is my influence at the moment, I swear to God I did not do this in purpose but come to think of it, it's a good start, to be the man of her dreams, I first have to be that man of her dreams

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Jimbeam

Happy Birthday to me!

I've been straying away from PU for some time since New Years.
I don't know why to be honest, it is like the whole approach anxiety thing is kicking back again.
I have not been approaching and it sucks and having Tom along means he is not approaching as well, which adds to the trouble, coz me not approaching can be very contagious

But on the the other hand I've been improving myself to be more alpha, been taking self defence/MMA classes. THere are 2 more stuff that I wanna take as well and will update you guys when I have done it. I would have to thank Johnny Wolf for this, I'm kinda like following his footsteps, if you want to be the man of her dreams, you first have to be the man of her dreams.  SELF IMPROVEMENT!

But I know I have to keep approaching to be better, that;s the only way, cold approach

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JimBeam

Guess what I've found!

OK just a quick update, something is very wrong with my laptop right now, the display is off and my network card is a goner, will always DC, trying to type as fast as I could so that I could at least post this one.

Attended my first martial arts class 2 days ago. To be honest I was expecting more sweat but didn't, but my right arm was aching from all the beating I was getting on my right arm, looking forward to next class which is tomorrow. Dude, i have to spend £700 for 6 months class and I have to make this worth while

Was cleaning up my room trying to clear all the cluster and guess what I've found. MONEY!!!!
Loads of money.  I was really broke this month and probably next month as well due to tonnes of reason, martial arts class, car insurance, return money to a friend and my laptop needs repairing and was thinking of getting a new one too....everything is money.

Sarging? Been really quiet since Xmas to be honest. but im working on my whole alpha thing by trying the MMA classes or self defence and the next one would be salsa dance and improv class.I have about 9 months to do all this and everything need money!!!

So there you go, quick update
Hope to see u guys soon after I sort my laptop out and hopefully get a new one as well

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Jimbeam