Man Flu

This has been the worst week of my life.

Bad cough, sore throat, joint ache, back pain.
You name it I've got it.
Last night I was dreaming about Spare Ribs in BBQ Sauce and Special Chow Mein
HOW FUCK UP IS THAT!

And the worst part, 2 nights ago something creepy happened.  I remembered turning off the lights before I went to bed and the next morning it was turned on.  I lie on my bed for good 15 minutes wondering who the fuck turned on the lights.  Mind you I was the only person at home, everyones was still on their holiday mood from Christmas.  I can only think of 2 assumptions, 1) I'm sleep walking; 2) There's a horny ghost!!

Anadin Paracetomol is not working for me right now.  Going out in 15 minutes to get Night Nurse (all in one remedy) which suits me.

No No since Christmas I haven't been approaching at all, now that I got Man Flu, its worst.

well got to go. I still need to work even when I'm ill

Jimbeam

Learning Curve - Awesomeness???

Ok. Today I got myself a new keyboard Hurray!!! I mean computer keyboard...

I did not approach since Sunday.  Bad? YES!

Right, met up with Sam and Phil on Sunday and damn did I learn tonnes.
It's been awhile since we were all going out together.  Me and Sam had coffee and chatted for a bit which is nice coz it's been awhile since we last sat and talk, well the last time we talked, I was emotionally crazy, sprouting crazy shit which got him all worried. (Yes! The game does things to your mind!!!!)

Sam pointed out something significant in my approach.  I wasn't bantering, no small talk and no humor, basically, I'm lousy with conversational skills, another words, I can't even talk!!!
Waoh, now I have a new set of problems.

One of the suggestions that Sam gave me was to watch Whose Line Is It Anyway!
It's good stuff
I really think humor is one of the most important things in a conversation. But this is what I lack, and which i find it very difficult to come up with.

You see, after ovecoming a certain problem, another one will show up, I like to think that this is an improvement.  You solved the last problem and you go on with another, keep improving.

I know it doesn't sound like fun, it isn't!  But if this is going to help me get better, I would definitely give it a try.

Let's see what happens tomorrow, because I'm going to open with a real life situational opener and see where can I go from there.

Word.
JimBeam

Night Game was Horible

I tried following the footsteps of Jim Carrey in the movie YES MAN!
Phil and Sam decided not to come out tonight so Sam told me to go solo, which I eventually say YES because I know how bad I suck in Night Game and how bad I want to get good, so I pushed myself to go out tonight.  Went out, did my thing and in fact I got blown out from my last set and I suspect I had a bad breath coz I can't keep myself from noticing this girl keep waving her hand as in like trying to "wave" away the bad smell coming out of my mouth.

I'm not even sure if that's the case but if it is... well, you get the picture.

I know its crazy but I did it anyway, I actually went out alone, which is really weird.
No friends and no game, I was that "creepy guy"

Well, on the good side, at least I did well, I opened at least 5 sets I think, but never went pass the opener, which was a bit of a kick in the balls.

Everytime I felt like giving up, I will catch myself looking at the text Top Cat sent me. 

"You will learn to fight the dragon. No excuses!"

This is gonna be one hell of a dragon to fight, that's for sure.

Somehow, I felt more comfortable doing daygame compared to night game.  In fact I do a lot better in day.  But as they say, I'm only as good as my weakest link.  So I want to get good on both.

Meeting Tom tomorrow for day game.  Wish me luck guys :)

Jimbeam

Not so PUA, just life...and it suck :(

Great, I thought if you were kind enough to others, the universe and people will be kind to you as well.  NO no no, that's not how things work in the real world.  In the real world, if you be nice to others, they will just fuck you upside down and inside out.

Life Lesson No.1 :  Never lend money to friends

That includes BFFFFFFFFFF........
Once you do lend them money, that's probably the last time you're gonna hear from them.
Yes, I'm dumb enough to fall for the same trick twice!!!
Let's call them A and B
A doesn't call me anymore, if A calls, it's going to be weird coz money ruin friendship
B acting all weird, like we've never met before.  I'm invisible

It's really fucked up.
I mean seriously, what can I do to deal with this.

I'm not even sure if I can ever see my hard earned money ever again?!

Jimbeam

Inspiration from unexpected places

I'm not a big fan of anime, I know some guys do.  Anyway, I'm not hardcore on anime, I tend to follow the few popular ones, eg. Bleach and Naruto.  OK, I know I know, what the hell I'm talking about anime right.  Recently I've been watching Naruto and then I realised the main characters shares my same problem, being good at the game!

For those who do not watch anime, Naruto (protaganist) is on his way to become the world famous and strongest ninja but he suck big time!  He always dream of being a master ninja and what not; but he's got no skills; but what he lacks he gains in strong determination and motivation.  He will just push through the barrier like there's not tomorrow and now he's a really good ninja and still improving.

It's a lot like us, well at least for me.  I want to become a good pua but I suck, i got no game.  So I set out to learn skills and train hard.  I relate myself to him a lot.  And everytime I felt down, somehow I get my inspiration and motivation up just by watching him.  He's not outcome dependant, he doesn't care what happens, he just knows that he needs to complete his mission and do it well even if it cost his life.

If you find yourself burned out and low on motivation, search outside the box, look for inspiration and believe me, you will find it, places that you have never expected

Jimbeam

Depression

I have only now realised that I'm actually suffering "depression"

Yes, I said it!
For the past 1 week I was feeling pretty weird, I've been going out doing my approaches and I felt good at one point coz I've seen some results eg. number closed, facebook closed. And then, it turns bad, all those numbers and facebook closes flaked. And I'm struggling to find out why. Like what Jeremy Soul from LoveSystems mentioned before in his blog, the DIP!

Although, I know it is not true but I felt like my friends are trying to distance themselves from me. This lead me to search for answers. And I came across 2 blog post

http://approachanxiety.com/2010/11/combatting-depression/
http://thesocialsecrets.com/2010/11/puas-and-depression-how-to-combat-it/

All those "symptoms" that they mentioned are true to me.

Depression is fucking real guys. All this while I though, depression only happens to psycho, guys with mental issues but I was so wrong. Now that I've "diagnosed" myself, I need to make some changes.

To be honest, other than doing my approaches, I have nothing interesting happening in my life.

I kinda like see myself as a big colorful empty can. With beautiful pictures, drawings and colors decorating the can but its empty inside. Pictures, drawing and colors represent routines and skills learn in pick up. You can have the best routines in the world and enough routines that you can shoot like a fucking machine gun but you're hollow in the inside, empty, your colorful can is just for show. Now my job is to fill that can with activities.

Jimbeam

We all Judge

We've been judged and we have judged. (I'm not sure if I word it right, well, fuck grammar!)

We are one hell of a judgemental beings.
We judge people on the streets, in the bookstore, coffee shop, bars and strip club. Yes we judge people by its cover, even I fell victim on this.

Besides getting the idea from watching Into The Wild, it also came from my journey of learning pick up skills. I have come to realise one thing. What gave us the right to judge others? Is this fair? To judge others before we even know them personally?

Every living being has a story to tell, there's a life potrait waiting to be painted on a canvas to be shown to everyone. But even before that we are so eager to make assumptions base on pure dumb observation.

I went to a strip club last Friday night with Sam, Phil and Tom and I met this stripper and her name was Brooke. I ran game on her, well, at least I tried. She told me she just finished criminal psychology and she's a police officer. I swear to God she told me that. And then it struck me, no matter who we are, no matter what we do, we are still human beings facing real life problems or whatever circumstances it may be. I truly believe that what we do does not define us but passion.

Who gave us the right to judge people who obviously worked hard trying to get somewhere in life. Who gave us the right to judge people when we have not experience it before.

You know what I would tell to those that judge. Give them the benefit of the doubt and put yourself into their shoes and then you judge and i would definitely hear you out.

Jimbeam

Let Go

How does it really feels to really let go? Not give a fuck about the outcomes. Not giving into society rules, that all we humans are bound to follow.

Yes yes you have probably heard this before. I've just watched Fight Club. No I'm not trying to be someone I'm not. Fight Club just got me thinking.

I went out with Tom, Phil and Sam. We were meant to have fun. Well, at least that was what I thought. I did badly for the night. I thought after all the approaches I did on day time would make it a lot easier to approach night time, I guess I was wrong. Dead wrong!

Phil and Sam as usual did their best to push me into sets. And as I was before like a fucking retarded AFC stood around like a dumb ass and not approach. And as before I felt that I've let them down even I know they are not. To be honest, I felt like crap.

You know, somehow down the line I was just hoping that a GURU would just pop out and gave you the secret to success; not just success in pick up but success in life. I guess I'm still leaving in the dream world.

Do we ever preach what we teach? Do we see life the way we wanted it to be seen?
So what I'm a mother fucking illegal immigrant. I'm not a murderer! I'm just a honest guy working his ass off trying to fix his life. To find a meaning in life if there's one. At least I'm trying to sort my life out, I know it's not so clean but at least I'm not sitting on my ass and whine about it, i take action. That is why I'm here in the first place. Honestly I have got nothing to lose. Nothing to lose besides myself.

So why am I not approaching? It's because deep down inside me I still care about the outcome, i think too much, i talked to much, i analyse too much, Because i don't fucking let go. I worry about my friends feeling, i worry about me not approaching. I think GAME too much. I need to fucking let go.

LET GO is the word of the day, LET GO

let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go

P/S : What is wrong and what is right is not for others to decide but YOU! YOU decide what is wrong and right in your life. i want to take control!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Read all you want, think all you want, but in the end of the day you have to take action, i have to take action.

JIMBEAM

500 reasons to quit but only 1 not to quit, go figure!

Reading comments and testimonial from other PUA's are what kept me going.

Today I met with a friend whom I've only know for a couple of months. He's a guy with loads of life experience and advices way beyond his age and every word he says I will always remember. For the first time I had a serious conversation about this whole pick up theory and I realised that there are people out there who doesn't like what we do coz it's manipulative.

We had a very good brain storming session about the pros and cons. It's always good to have opinions from the outside of the community and in a way it keeps me on the ground. obviously he strongly disagree with what I do but I totally understand where he is coming from. at one point i was questioning myself, is this the right thing to do? And for that I thank you my friend, you have just got me thinking, appreciate it

I just read a comment made by a fellow brother who attended Project Rockstar and then it hit me. Reminding me why I was here in the first place. And I want to say this once and for all, that I never regret one bit the day I started to learn, if anything it helped me to push myself and bring out the potential in me as a man, as a person.

There will be people who's gonna get you side track, telling u bad stuff and discouraging you. In my opinion, what we are today is not helping us getting laid and not helping us to get the lifestyle that we want. All we are doing is working hard to build that, at least we are trying to fix things.

I believe that what we invest today is gonna be returned ten fold in the future. I would rather fail trying then to die wondering if I have made that move in the first place.

Only one reason and that is CHANGE!
I want change, we want changes in our lives and we are doing exactly that.

Jimbeam

Direct Approach Cures Approach Anxiety

Dear readers,

I'm back again hopefully with another great post.

Since my last post, loads of stuff had happen. I would dare say now that I've finally overcome my Approach Anxiety! Yes! You heard that right brothers!!
AA is still there every time I approach, the only difference this time is I manage to climb over that wall of doubt. Do you want to know the secret?

APPROACH!

I know its not a big help since you guys expected more than just a one word answer but that's the truth. I now realised that I have been wasting my time for the past few months thinking that I approached but its not the case in reality. I have been doing so called "approach"

Go direct once my dear brother, just once and you will see!

I did my very first direct approach on the streets in a busy city centre which I will have never done. And since then I never stop.

I would definitely want to give credit to Jeremy Soul from Love Systems and Jon Sinn from Sinns Of Attraction and not forgetting my friends and mentor Phil, Sam and new buddy Tom.

I even got number close in 5 minutes but ended up flaked LOL
but the point is I wouldn't dare do this in the first place and now I just want to concentrate on getting consistent results and improving

We've gone to far to quit now

Jimbeam

I'm not gone, I'm here

It's been a freaking long time since my last post and loads of stuff had happen.
OK, since no one really knows who I really am and no one actually reads my blog so I can spill a little truth in it.

Last Friday, I finally attended a 1 on 1/seminar bootcamp with Discovery from Venusian Artist (Mystery's Company). To be honest, its freaking expensive but the good side is, you know how things are done. Attending to this 1 on 1 makes me realise that I have gone so far and I can't stop. I know I have potential to do this and I wanna be a coach too. I wanna help myself and then help others.

My advice to guys out there who are still sitting on your ass reading materials from the internet or reading my blog, i say to you, you need to stop wasting time and get out there.

When I got back from the camp, I realised that I was wasting my time for the past couple of months and I need to get back up to speed. I've been sitting here reading stuffs and masturbating to porn, such a waste of time. I went straight to my laptop and search for wingmen in my area. You know what's weird about newbies (don't get me wrong, I'm a newbie too) that you guys want wingmen but never take initiative to keep in contact.

you can sit there all day looking for wingmen, and dude, i can tell you already that you are wasting your freaking time, no wingmen is going to pop up on your lap if all you do is typing on a freaking keyboard like what I'm doing right now -pun intended-

life is too short and you will never know what is coming around the corner

Btw, I rolled with Discovery, Top Cat and Sphinx
They were great mentors and hopefully one day the next time i meet them, my game would be at a whole new level

Just another day

It's me again with another post.
Try to keep this a habit, you know, like penning down everything that is happening around me.
I guess what makes life interesting is the people around us, events that happens around, all those stuff kinda shape you, make the person you are today.
Life is like the movie Matrix (love to use that as a metaphor), once you see through all the disguises, you're in!

Watched "She's Out Of My League" and "Date Night"
SOOML really got me thinking, this is exactly what we AFC need, you know, love at first sight or to be romantically linked to a hot 10! Come on guys, who wouldn't, right?
I'm so tired and frustrated sometimes, I just want to give up and hopefully some hot blonde 10 will show up in front of your doorstep asking if you've seen her iPhone

As a young kid, I was the ignorant one, not the brightest in the family that's for sure. and kinda like that things for granted sometimes. I use to think all white folks came from America. Well, I wasn't that dumb, I mean I do know about the United Kingdom, Australia etc. but you know, I thought they were all the same... WHITE.. I was that ignorant!

Coming over here 3 years ago was the best decision I have ever made, and I would take the same road again if I ever have to choose again. The life experience that you get is incredible, money can't buy.

I was once told, "If money can be a solution to a problem, then it isn't a problem"
This is so true, so very true
Think about it, if paying for expensive bootcamp can solve the problem of an AFC, well, there wouldn't be anymore AFC around. I'm not trying to say bootcamp isn't going to help us guys, what I'm trying to say is this is something everyone can take advantage of, you know, it doesn't mean if you could only learn this if you're rich.
OK OK I know this is kinda messed up metaphor but you get the point.

Woah, didn't know writing a blog can be so hard, as you could probably tell already, the whole content is pretty weird.

I tend to say random stuff and cramp it all in a blog so you could have like 4 or 5 stories which are not related cramped into one blog for your "reading pleasure"

Oh I wanted to get an ebook reader too, but its too freaking expensive and I'm a little broke right now.

Oh if Phil ever read this, thanks Phil for your advice on taking that bootcamp, having my mom over for 2 weeks was the best fucking thing I ever did. You know, seeing her again after 3 years had really changed me. Me and mom didn't really had the best mother son relationship, well partly because I was so fucking ignorant. But as I grow, I totally understand where she's coming from, i understand why all the nagging and yelling and scolding was nessesary

Anyway I think it's enough for one day, and I have to hit the sack so I talk to u guys later
Ciao

Should be an interesting read

Everyone deserve to be loved. Its what makes this a better place to live. I always get loads of ideas to write everytime I watched a movie. Everything that I have written in the past, present and future is related to my journey to PUA.

This whole PUA thing has been a big revelation to me, its like Neo from the Matrix who finally understood how the system works thus being in control of your own life. For me having been exposed to this culture had made me a more mature person.

I do believe love at first sight but not everyone is as lucky as the other guy. For women who are reading this, not all guys who are in this PUA cultures only go after your vaginas, there are genuine guys out there. For me, it's sharing that warm, fuzzy feeling with the person you care. It might not last, it might be a forever thing but the most important part of it is that we were able to share with you girls out there.

I know I'm saying rubbish right now, well its a blog and its loads of shit
What I'm saying is REGRET is our biggest enemy

It's that one thing that's going to haunt you forever till the day you die unless we as a person do something about it.

I've finally met Phil which for the first time not intimidating. He was so laid back so relax and for the first time I was actually relax hanging out with him. Well, he said he was really tired

Life can be simple as long as we keep them simple
For all of you guys out there who is still looking for the truth, well, don't stop trying and I promise you the reward is going to be a sweet one

Back to reality

I had the best week of my life, seeing my mom and sister for the first time in 3 years was really great, no words can ever describe that warm feeling, to be able to touch them and hug them.

But after all this wonderful experience, eventually, you have to snap out of it. It's back to the reality and the reality suck big time! I have to start looking for a new job, which is not a good thing considering my situation, but I always keep myself as optimistic as possible. I try not to complaint and I try to find solutions to every problem, but as you may know, we're only human, I'm only human....

I know for the past month this blog has stray away from PUA stuff and its getting boring with all my life story. I truly believe whatever we go through in life is an experience which will help us in our everyday journey, in this case, PUA. I myself have been super busy organizing stuff for my family and I was pretty tired after that.

I keep reminding myself though, on why I'm doing this (PUA). Everytime I feel down, I will always remember that night I did my first pull, which I'm really proud of myself and that is going to be something I hold close to my heart, after all PUA is human and human has emotion :)

Now the next plan is to make sure to keep my family happy till they leave and after that I start looking for job. Let me know if you want to hire, I'm young and strong and energetic and I can start anytime after 22/09/10

Hopefully my next blog would be something positive

PEACE

I did something right and yet it felt so wrong

this 2 weeks has been hell, have not done a single PUA stuff. and today i did something which i thought was right and then i realised i was an idiot.

basically, was out delivering and this red car couldn't hit the brakes on time and it clipped my car on the roundabout. and it's pretty obvious it was his fault and that idiot just sped off. i was so angry that i gave chase for a bit and then i realise i had to deliver the food.

you see my story is complicated, interesting and kinda taboo, I'm not suppose to say stuff like this on here. and hopefully i dont leave any cyber finger print.

anyway. i shouldn't have make that police report, i felt like i was the offender, coz i was asked all this questions which i really do not feel comfortable at all.

i have such bad week

Unexpected twist is just part of life

One phone call from my boss ruined my day! My mom and sister is here for a 2 week visit. I was really happy until my boss called me today.

My boss was trying her best not to hurt my feelings so she explained the reasons why she had to let me go. So basically, I'm fired but in a very polite way. I kinda expected this to happen but not this early, I was thinking that I might still be safe till Christmas, but I guess I was wrong.

Well, basically business here isn't really good and it's a fact, my boss didn't have to explain, I can tell that business wasn't good. She had to let someone go so that she could cover her losses and that would be me, as expected. What I did not expect was the timing. A little early than I have thought.

But she did make a point to tell me that if whenever business is good again, she would get me back here. Well, I certainly hope so, coz I love this place.

Gosh, hope I could see Phil before I leave.

This is a little too much for me to handle. The is certainly pressure, financially. But the most important thing is to allow both my Mom and Sis to have the best time of their lives! Family comes first.

Wish me luck man

my Old Kindergarden crush was in my dream

Yeap, i actually had a good dream, it was so good that i missed my hairdresser appointment... i had book 2 weeks earlier and its now going to the drain. luckily for me i could get it done this evening, so im good LOL...

Oh oh..im actually going to learn to bake cheese cake.... awesome...gonna show u guys my first attemp on baking a cake..... there will be pictures !!!!!!

anyway... been super lazy..... have not read any of the PUA stuff for the past few days... been busy planning trip for my mom and sister....she's coming over to visit me for 2 weeks...which is pretty awesome... i think im gonna get an accent coach...its pretty random really

Welcome to the real world... and it sucks!!!!!!

Life can give you so much fun and pleasure and when you least expected, they start throwing you curveballs and shit!!!! I've just come to realise that I might lose my job anytime starting tomorrow!!! HOORAY!!!

You see, where I work, there isn't any contract, so coming and going is very common around here. Long story short, it's a new business, customer base = low, profit = not much sometimes losing a little, my boss couldn't take the shit and now they want to sell or rent their business away, so new owner would take over and make some major changes..... that includes changes in STAFF!!!!

I should have seen it coming. Been in this "business" for 3 years now, I could already tell a little if the business going to be a profitable one or.... you know...go down south.

I guess life isn't perfect, like anything else, you get tonnes of shit everytime, once in awhile. :P

Losing my job is just part of the problem. Losing my job means I need to move away again!! The worst part is I love this town, like I said in my previous post, this is the only place where I can really learn my PUA stuff because Phil is here!!!!

Speaking of Phil, hopefully I'm still around when Phil's back next October. I'm not even sure if this business could even last till Christmas! It's scary and at the same time predictable... I guess

I was pretty down today thinking about losing my job soon. I guess in life, it's all about making the right choices. And I don't believe in fate or it's written in the book or whatever, don't like the idea that we're not in control of our own life, this is pretty scary. I believe we can still choose and we do not need to follow the majority, be the minority for once shit head!!! Well, I've been!

One more thing to keep in mind, if you ever find yourself wondering whether you should help your best friend financially, doesn't matter if you offer or you have been ask for a favor. DON'T!!!

Money and friends doesn't really mix well together, it's going to ruin your life, most of the time it's the latter. Being a nice and good guy, helping around is not going to take you far, learn it from the pro!

BTW, I'm going to admit here, right now! I have an addiction!! Yes, and addiction.... I'm suffering from :

SEVERE PORN ADDICTION!!!!

Yes there you go, I said it. I recognize my problem and I'm going to fix it!

So what, no one is perfect and all of us had at some point a dark secret! Mine is this.

Spending countless of hours in front of the screen JERKING OFF while watching some blonde from the screen touching herself!

So what, life isn't perfect! And I'm fixing it!
Do you guys have any sticking points in life? School? College? University??

Drop me a line!

Is there consequences in telling the truth?

My thoughts on blog? Personally, it's a platform where you can express whatever you want to say which you wouldn't normally do in front of your "normal" friends and family. I guess it's a platform for like minded people and to readers who are interested in "weird and bizarre" true stories. I guess....

There is so much I want to share to the world but not sure if I should do it. All you know, FBI, CIA, Home Services would be on your doorstep.

Anyway, my rant about the truth have to be kept for another day when I really do finally want to reveal it :)

Ok, so I've been doing some thinking for the past day. Here's how the story goes:

I just moved to town Z about 4 months ago and loving it ever since, met some incredible friends and that's how I started with my PUA thing, I met Phil which is like Mentor and it all started here in town Z. Reason I moved here, its work related. I work and live in Store X.... covenient for me to move around, work and sleep at the same place.

Now this guy G who I know wants to buy store X and runs it. Here's the problem. If he is to buy this Store X, I would have to go, another words, I'm fired from Store X. and I have to leave Town Z. U might think that I should get another job, well I can't. So that's the problem, I wanna stay in TOwn Z but I cant afford a place without a job and with my current situation, I cant get a job easily.

Ok that was my rant.... it was weird, I know

Good night

A break from PUA/

Nothing awesome happen for the past week or 2.
Did not successfully pick up any girl, in fact I did not even iniate any approaches!
I'm not sure why this is happening, can it be lack of motivation or just plain lazy, I don't really know. Maybe you guys out there could tell me.
Went out with Sam last Tuesday night with the sole intention of practicing our approach and pick up but it ended up both of us buying cheap alcohol from Tesco and drank at my place. Sam could really drink. Me on the other hand was not. I have never been a big fan of alcohol

Sam decided that we should take a break from pick up and just enjoy the night. Well. it is true that we needed a break. To be honest, since I met Sam, we never really hang out and have fun, it was always about "work". So fucking tiring. So, Sam suggested that we celebrate our night of being in a path of PUA and also kind of a farewell thing because he is leaving for a euro trip next month for a month. We hang out at my place drinknng, and ended up chatting and learning more about him. I didn't really like the idea of taking a break and drink ourselves to death, coz it feels like we are wasting our time. But after an hour to our drinking, I actually glad that we did took our break, it was so relaxing, something that I did not feel for a long time. BTW, I didn't drink much so I was pretty sober at that time, sober enough to have a proper conversation and i was totally in control of myself LOL :P

I've read somewhere, probably from "THE GAME" by Neil Strauss. Learning the game isn't about them (females), it's about us, we, me, the man, MALE. It has always about us. This is self improvement. Some people who has such big ego that they are afraid to admit it that they needed help. We all need help, one way or another

Like I said in my previous post. I have never thought I could do what I did, compared to 4 months ago, its a fucking big improvement. Having said that, it doesn't mean I'm any good, I'm far from it, but I know I'm going to work harder to perfect my skills now that I know that this is possible.

Take it one day at a time. Don't rush things.

My first Number Close!

Yes that's right, my very first number close and it doesn't matter if it flakes,, all i know I did it, and I know genuinely it was because I apply what I've learn for the past 3 months. (and im 99% sure the number is solid :p)

Go back 4 months ago, I was a douchebag! My first "ugly" encounter was in Coventry in a Chinese karaoke/disco. I did what an AFC will do, bought her drinks (2 drinks in fact)
Made a fool out of myself, by leaning in, running out of things to say, it was just dumb
I was there like 2 freaking hours trying to get that blonde, and I ask her for her number, textet her the next day and guess what, no reply

Tonight, met up with Mike and Sam, apparently Mike is leaving for Birmingham soon and tonight was his last night with us, which was really sad for me coz I really like that guy.

Like usual we were drinking and doing some warm up sets. Sam was pushing me really hard to approach because he knows I can get AA quickly, and when i Do get them, its ugly
So I did 3 warm up sets and by the 3rd one, I was high
We bounced to the next bar and this is where I game 2 girls, 1 blonde the other brunette

3 of us was on a table and 2 of them was on the other side
So i took the initiative to walk over to them and ask them random question

It was a situational opener and they respond to it nicely
Transition in to a few stuff like music
Did the best friend opener, and they laughed like hell well giggle actually, IOI!!
My Attraction and Qualification is really blur here coz this is the first time I went this long
Got their names first instead of waiting
Tried to move them to our group but it didnt work

WEll, luckily for Sam he brought out the camera and that's my que! Perfect logistic
Ask if they could take a picture of us
Ended up taking pictures for them and Woila! Joined our group

I wanted the blonde, but logistic was hard for me to get to her, so when she went to the bar, I got an extra chair next to me and Bingo end up sitting with me

Had great conversation, Transition is the key all thanks to Magic Bullet! and PHIL!!
I did ran some routines here like the THE Ring made famous in the THE GAME by Neil Strauss
Did loads of Kino but I could tell it was not smooth but it was ok

We wanted to bounce again, but the girls wanted to stay so I got the blondes number and she happily reply

Something weird happen after that, there was a random song playing at that time and I just BS and said I like that song and she said she like it too, and she asked me for a dance!! Woohoo
So i knew it was a solid number

Thanks guys for everything and after tonight I want more.

P/S: I'm not just gaming her, she really is interesting, I did Qualification on her and found out we did have common interest and we love the same movie too!

Peace out
JimBeam

Top reason why I enjoy watching good films

IT STIMULATES YOUR BRAIN!

Yes, it does. To me at least, everytime!
You start to think, wonder, ponder and what not.
You then question reality and you question yourself.
I find this very stimulating, in a good way.

It does help me to revaluate my life. I always ask myself, is this IT? Or there is something greater out there.

I watched Inception today. Got me thinking hard
You know, it's interesting how much you can learn from watching movies.
I admit, I can be a very ignorant person
so, most of the time I will definitely learn something new, just by watching movies
All along I though being aware in a dream was something of a child's play, something out of a wishful thinking. Not until this evening, this can be done and there are tonnes of websites out there dedicated in teaching people how to do just that.

This is what they called "Lucid Dreaming"

I think I'm going to try this
This blog is going to servve as my Dream Journal as well as PUA

No, I have not forgotten my real life goal. PUA is something I'm working on, as for the time being this is still a secret, no one knows about my little secret pass time. Neither family nor friends know about this.

Till next time

Jimbeam

Honest, I've Been Lazy

I've been lazy, no excuse!

I haven't been approaching for the past week. I've failed teribly. Everytime I try to read some stuff regarding PUA, my eyes will drop, yawn, drowsy, it's like I'm not interested anymore. It's like I don't give a shit about all this PUA

But I know I want to be good at this. I can see myself being good at this. It's ironic coz usually I'm a really modest when it comes to things like this, but I know I can be good

On my previous blog I mentioned about looking around our surroundings and we could get motivation and stuff like that. This is still true.

Never Give UP!

Friendly Reminder

Do you sometimes get tired of all this game? Burned out? Do you sometimes questions yourself on why you are playing this game, why are you sacrificing all your time on this? Oh I definitely do, I question myself everyday and wonder if all of this worth it?

Look around, the answer is all around you! It can come in both loud and subtle way. I had my friendly reminder today when I was delivering food to a nearby place. My GOD did I slap myself on the face. She was absolutely HOT! and guess what? She was wearing this sweat pants which hugs nicely on her ass and the panties was visible on the back and I could see a little ass crack too!! and another blonde came walking out on a white tank top with some really short jeans pants... OF coz they got BF! That was my wake up call...

On my way back to my car, I started talking to myself like a weirdo. I'm sane, honest, I was just beating myself up for questioning my quest for glory. Then, I realise why was I so into the game in the first place. It wasn't about the girls, the females, NO, it was I, we, men, Male... its for our future!

If you or I ever question our reason into the game, take a good look around us :)

P/S: I'm still new with the whole blogging stuff so it might look a little plain but give me some time, and it will look better in no time

I have no Idea

It's Saturday afternoon, woke up about an hour ago. The laziness in me is kicking me, don't feel like going out at all, my eyes are heavy, I had 9 hours of sleep and yet I feel so tired. It must be the trainning from the gym yesterday.

Phil has gone for about a month now, and I starting to feel like going back to my AFC ways, playing games and staying home. Of course, I try to compensate by reading tonnes of stuff eg. Johnny Wolf blogs. It's definitely a good read.

I even got Daniel Rose, Sex God Methods. I'm not even sure when I can use it if I don't get a girl

Just Fucking Approach

Went out with Sam this evening to a few different pubs

Open 3 sets in like one and half hour. Nothing to be proud of really, but the fact that we open is good. Of course we want to aim further :)

It wasn't easy, trust me on that but it was worth it, I did a hell better compared to last 2 weeks, I froze like a dumb fool, anxiety was all over me but I did not let that happen tonight, I was cool and somewhat calm I might say.

I'm glad to have found this wonderful brotherhood, its just 3-4 of us but I know its growing, not just in quantity but quality.

Sam, if you are reading this, you are fvcking awesome! And we are so getting there!

I wonder what will happen in 6 months from now?

You Need To Get Out Of The House!

There are times when you just don't feel like getting out of the bed, the weather is just nice, soothing, perfect "sleeping enviroment". This is what I felt this afternoon. I was playing Assassins Creed II till 6AM and I was like "Fcuk!" Woke up at 1PM, forced myself out, changed and went to Subway to get some lunch.

Went out to the mall, hoping to approach but nothing happen.

Let me tell you guys something, pick up can be very tiring, it will drain your emotional and spiritual energy dry!

I did not exactly open sets but I manage to approach 2 sets to ask for direction. (I genuinely needed direction". I should have gone further but I did not, I'm not sure why but I know I should have. All I did was ask direction and the interaction just stop there and I say thank you

Even right now my eye lids are heavy, I can fall asleep anytime now.

I know Phil is not going to be very happy because of a promise that I made to him.
Working on it, you know I do

I need to get out of the house and start interacting

Overcoming Fears

I was never one to fight, I will always avoid at all cost.
The reason I used to give myself when I was a kid was fighting does not promote peace, so to promote peace you have to avoid fights.
Well, the hard truth is, I was a Pussy! I know if I ever get into a fight, the first to go down would be me. I was afraid of pain, broken bone and blood, I was just being a pussy.

Just like in PUA, my whole AA will tick when I see beautiful blondes, AA or whatever anxiety and nervousness will strike, this will not happen if they are typical Asian... It's something about Caucasian that turn on my switch. But I try my very best to overcome it, and I want to face it head on, so I learn the ways of PUA. PUA is a from of an art.

I always tell myself and my brother that "We only fear what we do not understand"
This is so true, because once you know how certain thing work, you understand it and you wouldn't feel so much fear

I've started to pick up some boxing lessons but this is just the beginning and its not much coz here I could only learn the techniques. TO really face my fear, I need to get into a trainer's enviroment. I'm planning to head over to Thailand to learn Mix Martial Arts when the time permits

Oh some of you must be wondering, where the hell did this kid had this fancy idea?
I guess Johnny Wolf opened my eyes on becoming a man, a real man, its more self improvement than fighting.

Oh, Johnny Wolf, if you are reading this, YOU ARE MY ROLE MODEL

JimBeam

My Journey Begins

Hi guys, what's up?

This is my very first attempt to record in writing everything that I'll be doing from this point onwards, be it PUA or life and what not

I'm 23, Asian, male. To be precise, I'm Chinese Malaysian.
My parents are your typical Chinese, strict, a little old fashioned, traditional way of thinking, you get that idea.
All my life, I was taught to be that "good boy"; which is good but it will only go so far.
You know how it is, you study, get a degree, get a good paying job, you work, you get married, you have kids, you pay mortgages and you die.
I didn't want that kind of life.

3 years ago, something weird happened. I did not get good enough result to attend public university so I had to look for private (which is expansive). But I didn't have that kind of money, so one thing led to another, I decided that I put on hold my education and fly to a foreign country. I took that big leap of faith and I came to the UK, alone :)

Fast forward 3 years, like every guys out there, I felt something was missing out, so after a little incident at a club, I googled and I came across this PUA. If you have asked me if PUA works, I would tell you no way. Now I'm dying to learn the art. This is more than just a pick up, this is life, something which will enrich your life

This blog is a little journal about me taking my journey and I hope this could help everyone out there who wished to be helped

Stay tuned for future blogs coz I'm still an AFC and on my way to mPUA!

JimBeam