It's Saturday afternoon, woke up about an hour ago. The laziness in me is kicking me, don't feel like going out at all, my eyes are heavy, I had 9 hours of sleep and yet I feel so tired. It must be the trainning from the gym yesterday.
Phil has gone for about a month now, and I starting to feel like going back to my AFC ways, playing games and staying home. Of course, I try to compensate by reading tonnes of stuff eg. Johnny Wolf blogs. It's definitely a good read.
I even got Daniel Rose, Sex God Methods. I'm not even sure when I can use it if I don't get a girl
Saturday, 31 July 2010
Wednesday, 21 July 2010
Just Fucking Approach
Went out with Sam this evening to a few different pubs
Open 3 sets in like one and half hour. Nothing to be proud of really, but the fact that we open is good. Of course we want to aim further :)
It wasn't easy, trust me on that but it was worth it, I did a hell better compared to last 2 weeks, I froze like a dumb fool, anxiety was all over me but I did not let that happen tonight, I was cool and somewhat calm I might say.
I'm glad to have found this wonderful brotherhood, its just 3-4 of us but I know its growing, not just in quantity but quality.
Sam, if you are reading this, you are fvcking awesome! And we are so getting there!
I wonder what will happen in 6 months from now?
Open 3 sets in like one and half hour. Nothing to be proud of really, but the fact that we open is good. Of course we want to aim further :)
It wasn't easy, trust me on that but it was worth it, I did a hell better compared to last 2 weeks, I froze like a dumb fool, anxiety was all over me but I did not let that happen tonight, I was cool and somewhat calm I might say.
I'm glad to have found this wonderful brotherhood, its just 3-4 of us but I know its growing, not just in quantity but quality.
Sam, if you are reading this, you are fvcking awesome! And we are so getting there!
I wonder what will happen in 6 months from now?
You Need To Get Out Of The House!
There are times when you just don't feel like getting out of the bed, the weather is just nice, soothing, perfect "sleeping enviroment". This is what I felt this afternoon. I was playing Assassins Creed II till 6AM and I was like "Fcuk!" Woke up at 1PM, forced myself out, changed and went to Subway to get some lunch.
Went out to the mall, hoping to approach but nothing happen.
Let me tell you guys something, pick up can be very tiring, it will drain your emotional and spiritual energy dry!
I did not exactly open sets but I manage to approach 2 sets to ask for direction. (I genuinely needed direction". I should have gone further but I did not, I'm not sure why but I know I should have. All I did was ask direction and the interaction just stop there and I say thank you
Even right now my eye lids are heavy, I can fall asleep anytime now.
I know Phil is not going to be very happy because of a promise that I made to him.
Working on it, you know I do
I need to get out of the house and start interacting
Went out to the mall, hoping to approach but nothing happen.
Let me tell you guys something, pick up can be very tiring, it will drain your emotional and spiritual energy dry!
I did not exactly open sets but I manage to approach 2 sets to ask for direction. (I genuinely needed direction". I should have gone further but I did not, I'm not sure why but I know I should have. All I did was ask direction and the interaction just stop there and I say thank you
Even right now my eye lids are heavy, I can fall asleep anytime now.
I know Phil is not going to be very happy because of a promise that I made to him.
Working on it, you know I do
I need to get out of the house and start interacting
Friday, 16 July 2010
Overcoming Fears
I was never one to fight, I will always avoid at all cost.
The reason I used to give myself when I was a kid was fighting does not promote peace, so to promote peace you have to avoid fights.
Well, the hard truth is, I was a Pussy! I know if I ever get into a fight, the first to go down would be me. I was afraid of pain, broken bone and blood, I was just being a pussy.
Just like in PUA, my whole AA will tick when I see beautiful blondes, AA or whatever anxiety and nervousness will strike, this will not happen if they are typical Asian... It's something about Caucasian that turn on my switch. But I try my very best to overcome it, and I want to face it head on, so I learn the ways of PUA. PUA is a from of an art.
I always tell myself and my brother that "We only fear what we do not understand"
This is so true, because once you know how certain thing work, you understand it and you wouldn't feel so much fear
I've started to pick up some boxing lessons but this is just the beginning and its not much coz here I could only learn the techniques. TO really face my fear, I need to get into a trainer's enviroment. I'm planning to head over to Thailand to learn Mix Martial Arts when the time permits
Oh some of you must be wondering, where the hell did this kid had this fancy idea?
I guess Johnny Wolf opened my eyes on becoming a man, a real man, its more self improvement than fighting.
Oh, Johnny Wolf, if you are reading this, YOU ARE MY ROLE MODEL
JimBeam
The reason I used to give myself when I was a kid was fighting does not promote peace, so to promote peace you have to avoid fights.
Well, the hard truth is, I was a Pussy! I know if I ever get into a fight, the first to go down would be me. I was afraid of pain, broken bone and blood, I was just being a pussy.
Just like in PUA, my whole AA will tick when I see beautiful blondes, AA or whatever anxiety and nervousness will strike, this will not happen if they are typical Asian... It's something about Caucasian that turn on my switch. But I try my very best to overcome it, and I want to face it head on, so I learn the ways of PUA. PUA is a from of an art.
I always tell myself and my brother that "We only fear what we do not understand"
This is so true, because once you know how certain thing work, you understand it and you wouldn't feel so much fear
I've started to pick up some boxing lessons but this is just the beginning and its not much coz here I could only learn the techniques. TO really face my fear, I need to get into a trainer's enviroment. I'm planning to head over to Thailand to learn Mix Martial Arts when the time permits
Oh some of you must be wondering, where the hell did this kid had this fancy idea?
I guess Johnny Wolf opened my eyes on becoming a man, a real man, its more self improvement than fighting.
Oh, Johnny Wolf, if you are reading this, YOU ARE MY ROLE MODEL
JimBeam
Thursday, 15 July 2010
My Journey Begins
Hi guys, what's up?
This is my very first attempt to record in writing everything that I'll be doing from this point onwards, be it PUA or life and what not
I'm 23, Asian, male. To be precise, I'm Chinese Malaysian.
My parents are your typical Chinese, strict, a little old fashioned, traditional way of thinking, you get that idea.
All my life, I was taught to be that "good boy"; which is good but it will only go so far.
You know how it is, you study, get a degree, get a good paying job, you work, you get married, you have kids, you pay mortgages and you die.
I didn't want that kind of life.
3 years ago, something weird happened. I did not get good enough result to attend public university so I had to look for private (which is expansive). But I didn't have that kind of money, so one thing led to another, I decided that I put on hold my education and fly to a foreign country. I took that big leap of faith and I came to the UK, alone :)
Fast forward 3 years, like every guys out there, I felt something was missing out, so after a little incident at a club, I googled and I came across this PUA. If you have asked me if PUA works, I would tell you no way. Now I'm dying to learn the art. This is more than just a pick up, this is life, something which will enrich your life
This blog is a little journal about me taking my journey and I hope this could help everyone out there who wished to be helped
Stay tuned for future blogs coz I'm still an AFC and on my way to mPUA!
JimBeam
This is my very first attempt to record in writing everything that I'll be doing from this point onwards, be it PUA or life and what not
I'm 23, Asian, male. To be precise, I'm Chinese Malaysian.
My parents are your typical Chinese, strict, a little old fashioned, traditional way of thinking, you get that idea.
All my life, I was taught to be that "good boy"; which is good but it will only go so far.
You know how it is, you study, get a degree, get a good paying job, you work, you get married, you have kids, you pay mortgages and you die.
I didn't want that kind of life.
3 years ago, something weird happened. I did not get good enough result to attend public university so I had to look for private (which is expansive). But I didn't have that kind of money, so one thing led to another, I decided that I put on hold my education and fly to a foreign country. I took that big leap of faith and I came to the UK, alone :)
Fast forward 3 years, like every guys out there, I felt something was missing out, so after a little incident at a club, I googled and I came across this PUA. If you have asked me if PUA works, I would tell you no way. Now I'm dying to learn the art. This is more than just a pick up, this is life, something which will enrich your life
This blog is a little journal about me taking my journey and I hope this could help everyone out there who wished to be helped
Stay tuned for future blogs coz I'm still an AFC and on my way to mPUA!
JimBeam
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