I have only now realised that I'm actually suffering "depression"
Yes, I said it!
For the past 1 week I was feeling pretty weird, I've been going out doing my approaches and I felt good at one point coz I've seen some results eg. number closed, facebook closed. And then, it turns bad, all those numbers and facebook closes flaked. And I'm struggling to find out why. Like what Jeremy Soul from LoveSystems mentioned before in his blog, the DIP!
Although, I know it is not true but I felt like my friends are trying to distance themselves from me. This lead me to search for answers. And I came across 2 blog post
http://approachanxiety.com/2010/11/combatting-depression/
http://thesocialsecrets.com/2010/11/puas-and-depression-how-to-combat-it/
All those "symptoms" that they mentioned are true to me.
Depression is fucking real guys. All this while I though, depression only happens to psycho, guys with mental issues but I was so wrong. Now that I've "diagnosed" myself, I need to make some changes.
To be honest, other than doing my approaches, I have nothing interesting happening in my life.
I kinda like see myself as a big colorful empty can. With beautiful pictures, drawings and colors decorating the can but its empty inside. Pictures, drawing and colors represent routines and skills learn in pick up. You can have the best routines in the world and enough routines that you can shoot like a fucking machine gun but you're hollow in the inside, empty, your colorful can is just for show. Now my job is to fill that can with activities.
Jimbeam
Tuesday, 30 November 2010
Monday, 29 November 2010
We all Judge
We've been judged and we have judged. (I'm not sure if I word it right, well, fuck grammar!)
We are one hell of a judgemental beings.
We judge people on the streets, in the bookstore, coffee shop, bars and strip club. Yes we judge people by its cover, even I fell victim on this.
Besides getting the idea from watching Into The Wild, it also came from my journey of learning pick up skills. I have come to realise one thing. What gave us the right to judge others? Is this fair? To judge others before we even know them personally?
Every living being has a story to tell, there's a life potrait waiting to be painted on a canvas to be shown to everyone. But even before that we are so eager to make assumptions base on pure dumb observation.
I went to a strip club last Friday night with Sam, Phil and Tom and I met this stripper and her name was Brooke. I ran game on her, well, at least I tried. She told me she just finished criminal psychology and she's a police officer. I swear to God she told me that. And then it struck me, no matter who we are, no matter what we do, we are still human beings facing real life problems or whatever circumstances it may be. I truly believe that what we do does not define us but passion.
Who gave us the right to judge people who obviously worked hard trying to get somewhere in life. Who gave us the right to judge people when we have not experience it before.
You know what I would tell to those that judge. Give them the benefit of the doubt and put yourself into their shoes and then you judge and i would definitely hear you out.
Jimbeam
We are one hell of a judgemental beings.
We judge people on the streets, in the bookstore, coffee shop, bars and strip club. Yes we judge people by its cover, even I fell victim on this.
Besides getting the idea from watching Into The Wild, it also came from my journey of learning pick up skills. I have come to realise one thing. What gave us the right to judge others? Is this fair? To judge others before we even know them personally?
Every living being has a story to tell, there's a life potrait waiting to be painted on a canvas to be shown to everyone. But even before that we are so eager to make assumptions base on pure dumb observation.
I went to a strip club last Friday night with Sam, Phil and Tom and I met this stripper and her name was Brooke. I ran game on her, well, at least I tried. She told me she just finished criminal psychology and she's a police officer. I swear to God she told me that. And then it struck me, no matter who we are, no matter what we do, we are still human beings facing real life problems or whatever circumstances it may be. I truly believe that what we do does not define us but passion.
Who gave us the right to judge people who obviously worked hard trying to get somewhere in life. Who gave us the right to judge people when we have not experience it before.
You know what I would tell to those that judge. Give them the benefit of the doubt and put yourself into their shoes and then you judge and i would definitely hear you out.
Jimbeam
Saturday, 27 November 2010
Let Go
How does it really feels to really let go? Not give a fuck about the outcomes. Not giving into society rules, that all we humans are bound to follow.
Yes yes you have probably heard this before. I've just watched Fight Club. No I'm not trying to be someone I'm not. Fight Club just got me thinking.
I went out with Tom, Phil and Sam. We were meant to have fun. Well, at least that was what I thought. I did badly for the night. I thought after all the approaches I did on day time would make it a lot easier to approach night time, I guess I was wrong. Dead wrong!
Phil and Sam as usual did their best to push me into sets. And as I was before like a fucking retarded AFC stood around like a dumb ass and not approach. And as before I felt that I've let them down even I know they are not. To be honest, I felt like crap.
You know, somehow down the line I was just hoping that a GURU would just pop out and gave you the secret to success; not just success in pick up but success in life. I guess I'm still leaving in the dream world.
Do we ever preach what we teach? Do we see life the way we wanted it to be seen?
So what I'm a mother fucking illegal immigrant. I'm not a murderer! I'm just a honest guy working his ass off trying to fix his life. To find a meaning in life if there's one. At least I'm trying to sort my life out, I know it's not so clean but at least I'm not sitting on my ass and whine about it, i take action. That is why I'm here in the first place. Honestly I have got nothing to lose. Nothing to lose besides myself.
So why am I not approaching? It's because deep down inside me I still care about the outcome, i think too much, i talked to much, i analyse too much, Because i don't fucking let go. I worry about my friends feeling, i worry about me not approaching. I think GAME too much. I need to fucking let go.
LET GO is the word of the day, LET GO
let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go
P/S : What is wrong and what is right is not for others to decide but YOU! YOU decide what is wrong and right in your life. i want to take control!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Read all you want, think all you want, but in the end of the day you have to take action, i have to take action.
JIMBEAM
Yes yes you have probably heard this before. I've just watched Fight Club. No I'm not trying to be someone I'm not. Fight Club just got me thinking.
I went out with Tom, Phil and Sam. We were meant to have fun. Well, at least that was what I thought. I did badly for the night. I thought after all the approaches I did on day time would make it a lot easier to approach night time, I guess I was wrong. Dead wrong!
Phil and Sam as usual did their best to push me into sets. And as I was before like a fucking retarded AFC stood around like a dumb ass and not approach. And as before I felt that I've let them down even I know they are not. To be honest, I felt like crap.
You know, somehow down the line I was just hoping that a GURU would just pop out and gave you the secret to success; not just success in pick up but success in life. I guess I'm still leaving in the dream world.
Do we ever preach what we teach? Do we see life the way we wanted it to be seen?
So what I'm a mother fucking illegal immigrant. I'm not a murderer! I'm just a honest guy working his ass off trying to fix his life. To find a meaning in life if there's one. At least I'm trying to sort my life out, I know it's not so clean but at least I'm not sitting on my ass and whine about it, i take action. That is why I'm here in the first place. Honestly I have got nothing to lose. Nothing to lose besides myself.
So why am I not approaching? It's because deep down inside me I still care about the outcome, i think too much, i talked to much, i analyse too much, Because i don't fucking let go. I worry about my friends feeling, i worry about me not approaching. I think GAME too much. I need to fucking let go.
LET GO is the word of the day, LET GO
let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go let go
P/S : What is wrong and what is right is not for others to decide but YOU! YOU decide what is wrong and right in your life. i want to take control!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Read all you want, think all you want, but in the end of the day you have to take action, i have to take action.
JIMBEAM
Wednesday, 24 November 2010
500 reasons to quit but only 1 not to quit, go figure!
Reading comments and testimonial from other PUA's are what kept me going.
Today I met with a friend whom I've only know for a couple of months. He's a guy with loads of life experience and advices way beyond his age and every word he says I will always remember. For the first time I had a serious conversation about this whole pick up theory and I realised that there are people out there who doesn't like what we do coz it's manipulative.
We had a very good brain storming session about the pros and cons. It's always good to have opinions from the outside of the community and in a way it keeps me on the ground. obviously he strongly disagree with what I do but I totally understand where he is coming from. at one point i was questioning myself, is this the right thing to do? And for that I thank you my friend, you have just got me thinking, appreciate it
I just read a comment made by a fellow brother who attended Project Rockstar and then it hit me. Reminding me why I was here in the first place. And I want to say this once and for all, that I never regret one bit the day I started to learn, if anything it helped me to push myself and bring out the potential in me as a man, as a person.
There will be people who's gonna get you side track, telling u bad stuff and discouraging you. In my opinion, what we are today is not helping us getting laid and not helping us to get the lifestyle that we want. All we are doing is working hard to build that, at least we are trying to fix things.
I believe that what we invest today is gonna be returned ten fold in the future. I would rather fail trying then to die wondering if I have made that move in the first place.
Only one reason and that is CHANGE!
I want change, we want changes in our lives and we are doing exactly that.
Jimbeam
Today I met with a friend whom I've only know for a couple of months. He's a guy with loads of life experience and advices way beyond his age and every word he says I will always remember. For the first time I had a serious conversation about this whole pick up theory and I realised that there are people out there who doesn't like what we do coz it's manipulative.
We had a very good brain storming session about the pros and cons. It's always good to have opinions from the outside of the community and in a way it keeps me on the ground. obviously he strongly disagree with what I do but I totally understand where he is coming from. at one point i was questioning myself, is this the right thing to do? And for that I thank you my friend, you have just got me thinking, appreciate it
I just read a comment made by a fellow brother who attended Project Rockstar and then it hit me. Reminding me why I was here in the first place. And I want to say this once and for all, that I never regret one bit the day I started to learn, if anything it helped me to push myself and bring out the potential in me as a man, as a person.
There will be people who's gonna get you side track, telling u bad stuff and discouraging you. In my opinion, what we are today is not helping us getting laid and not helping us to get the lifestyle that we want. All we are doing is working hard to build that, at least we are trying to fix things.
I believe that what we invest today is gonna be returned ten fold in the future. I would rather fail trying then to die wondering if I have made that move in the first place.
Only one reason and that is CHANGE!
I want change, we want changes in our lives and we are doing exactly that.
Jimbeam
Direct Approach Cures Approach Anxiety
Dear readers,
I'm back again hopefully with another great post.
Since my last post, loads of stuff had happen. I would dare say now that I've finally overcome my Approach Anxiety! Yes! You heard that right brothers!!
AA is still there every time I approach, the only difference this time is I manage to climb over that wall of doubt. Do you want to know the secret?
APPROACH!
I know its not a big help since you guys expected more than just a one word answer but that's the truth. I now realised that I have been wasting my time for the past few months thinking that I approached but its not the case in reality. I have been doing so called "approach"
Go direct once my dear brother, just once and you will see!
I did my very first direct approach on the streets in a busy city centre which I will have never done. And since then I never stop.
I would definitely want to give credit to Jeremy Soul from Love Systems and Jon Sinn from Sinns Of Attraction and not forgetting my friends and mentor Phil, Sam and new buddy Tom.
I even got number close in 5 minutes but ended up flaked LOL
but the point is I wouldn't dare do this in the first place and now I just want to concentrate on getting consistent results and improving
We've gone to far to quit now
Jimbeam
I'm back again hopefully with another great post.
Since my last post, loads of stuff had happen. I would dare say now that I've finally overcome my Approach Anxiety! Yes! You heard that right brothers!!
AA is still there every time I approach, the only difference this time is I manage to climb over that wall of doubt. Do you want to know the secret?
APPROACH!
I know its not a big help since you guys expected more than just a one word answer but that's the truth. I now realised that I have been wasting my time for the past few months thinking that I approached but its not the case in reality. I have been doing so called "approach"
Go direct once my dear brother, just once and you will see!
I did my very first direct approach on the streets in a busy city centre which I will have never done. And since then I never stop.
I would definitely want to give credit to Jeremy Soul from Love Systems and Jon Sinn from Sinns Of Attraction and not forgetting my friends and mentor Phil, Sam and new buddy Tom.
I even got number close in 5 minutes but ended up flaked LOL
but the point is I wouldn't dare do this in the first place and now I just want to concentrate on getting consistent results and improving
We've gone to far to quit now
Jimbeam
Wednesday, 3 November 2010
I'm not gone, I'm here
It's been a freaking long time since my last post and loads of stuff had happen.
OK, since no one really knows who I really am and no one actually reads my blog so I can spill a little truth in it.
Last Friday, I finally attended a 1 on 1/seminar bootcamp with Discovery from Venusian Artist (Mystery's Company). To be honest, its freaking expensive but the good side is, you know how things are done. Attending to this 1 on 1 makes me realise that I have gone so far and I can't stop. I know I have potential to do this and I wanna be a coach too. I wanna help myself and then help others.
My advice to guys out there who are still sitting on your ass reading materials from the internet or reading my blog, i say to you, you need to stop wasting time and get out there.
When I got back from the camp, I realised that I was wasting my time for the past couple of months and I need to get back up to speed. I've been sitting here reading stuffs and masturbating to porn, such a waste of time. I went straight to my laptop and search for wingmen in my area. You know what's weird about newbies (don't get me wrong, I'm a newbie too) that you guys want wingmen but never take initiative to keep in contact.
you can sit there all day looking for wingmen, and dude, i can tell you already that you are wasting your freaking time, no wingmen is going to pop up on your lap if all you do is typing on a freaking keyboard like what I'm doing right now -pun intended-
life is too short and you will never know what is coming around the corner
Btw, I rolled with Discovery, Top Cat and Sphinx
They were great mentors and hopefully one day the next time i meet them, my game would be at a whole new level
OK, since no one really knows who I really am and no one actually reads my blog so I can spill a little truth in it.
Last Friday, I finally attended a 1 on 1/seminar bootcamp with Discovery from Venusian Artist (Mystery's Company). To be honest, its freaking expensive but the good side is, you know how things are done. Attending to this 1 on 1 makes me realise that I have gone so far and I can't stop. I know I have potential to do this and I wanna be a coach too. I wanna help myself and then help others.
My advice to guys out there who are still sitting on your ass reading materials from the internet or reading my blog, i say to you, you need to stop wasting time and get out there.
When I got back from the camp, I realised that I was wasting my time for the past couple of months and I need to get back up to speed. I've been sitting here reading stuffs and masturbating to porn, such a waste of time. I went straight to my laptop and search for wingmen in my area. You know what's weird about newbies (don't get me wrong, I'm a newbie too) that you guys want wingmen but never take initiative to keep in contact.
you can sit there all day looking for wingmen, and dude, i can tell you already that you are wasting your freaking time, no wingmen is going to pop up on your lap if all you do is typing on a freaking keyboard like what I'm doing right now -pun intended-
life is too short and you will never know what is coming around the corner
Btw, I rolled with Discovery, Top Cat and Sphinx
They were great mentors and hopefully one day the next time i meet them, my game would be at a whole new level
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