Depression

I have only now realised that I'm actually suffering "depression"

Yes, I said it!
For the past 1 week I was feeling pretty weird, I've been going out doing my approaches and I felt good at one point coz I've seen some results eg. number closed, facebook closed. And then, it turns bad, all those numbers and facebook closes flaked. And I'm struggling to find out why. Like what Jeremy Soul from LoveSystems mentioned before in his blog, the DIP!

Although, I know it is not true but I felt like my friends are trying to distance themselves from me. This lead me to search for answers. And I came across 2 blog post

http://approachanxiety.com/2010/11/combatting-depression/
http://thesocialsecrets.com/2010/11/puas-and-depression-how-to-combat-it/

All those "symptoms" that they mentioned are true to me.

Depression is fucking real guys. All this while I though, depression only happens to psycho, guys with mental issues but I was so wrong. Now that I've "diagnosed" myself, I need to make some changes.

To be honest, other than doing my approaches, I have nothing interesting happening in my life.

I kinda like see myself as a big colorful empty can. With beautiful pictures, drawings and colors decorating the can but its empty inside. Pictures, drawing and colors represent routines and skills learn in pick up. You can have the best routines in the world and enough routines that you can shoot like a fucking machine gun but you're hollow in the inside, empty, your colorful can is just for show. Now my job is to fill that can with activities.

Jimbeam