insomnia? and wing man

Right now it is 7.40AM and I can't sleep.  So I thought I would humor myself by writing a blog only wearing my underwear.

Today was Sam's birthday so we went out to town last night to celebrate his 24th with Mad.

Had good fun, that's for sure.

Before this I was not a smoker but now, I do

It is not something that I'm proud of but you have to do what you have to do.

To smokers out there, you have no idea how good it is as a crutch.

I, for the first time, actually lost count how many sets I've opened last night with the help of a cigarette, well, not one but five.

To non-smokers, don't do it if you don't want to.  I know it's rubbish to say this in the first place.

This post is going to be a lot of bullshit and rambling so just bare with me while I'm writing and fighting hunger and insomnia at the same time.

Okay, I've just got a topic that I could ramble about : Wing Man

This is going to be my personal opinion and by no means a generalization of what it means to be a good wing man.

You probably heard or read this from top gurus out there (I heard mine from Savoy's audio)

Wing man can make you or break you, which is so true.

I would say a good wing man is a friend whom you have known for quite some time and I really meant friends not "sarging" patners -which I personally think is dumb and overated-

A true friend knows you personally and that could help you in a long run when you have him or her (in my case is a HE) trying to help you score.  The keyword here is being genuine -credit to Rob Judge-

I feel winging someone is not as easy as it sound, it's more than that, you really must know what you are doing and you must have a good "chemistry" with your friend and the other thing, you don't even have to worry about your wing man cock blocking you, which is always a bonus :-)

When I first started I stayed away from having a wing and also not winging others because I know where I am in terms of my skill.

This is just my two cents, if you want a wing man by all means do!

P/S: Treat your friend like a friend, not just a wing man

JimBeam

I approached, I should be Happy but I'm not

Reading blogs from David and Sasha did make a difference, one of those thing is reminding me not to just sit around while knowing there someone like David is taking all of your girls.  If David's AA is as terrible as Sasha had mention then I would say David did a great job handling the anxiety and bust through it and took numbers.

I've been in the community for nearly a year now and it took me awhile just to get numbers and most of the time... well, 95% of the time, it's flake.

You see, today I took action and approach a beautiful woman.  If I could say, by far the most attractive lady I've ever approach, this is what I call quality (I don't rate women with numbers, is not right)

Approach her at Tesco today.  DIRECT!

Ok, here's the problem I think I've figured it out.

When we say Direct, how direct did you go?  How direct was I when I told her that she was attractive.

Should I have push even farther even knowing that she got a boyfriend?  Like getting her number

Should I keep pushing and tell her that we should meet up again for coffee soon?  Does that sound pushy and creepy?

In all honesty, I'm really frustrated.  Been doing this for nearly a year and yet no real results, and when I say results, I mean getting laid, does not matter is it from cold or warm approaches.

Did I improve since I first started?  YES, of course I improved.  A LOT!! Definitely positive change.  Changes from lifestyle to communication skills (even my brother realised that I speak better grammar!) but not in my dating life!!

Yes I can definitely approach beautiful woman and tell them they are cute/attractive/adorable but that is as far as the conversation goes.  I mean after some small talk I mean.

I asked myself this today and the question has been stuck in my head for past couple of hours.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME???!!

I don't know, I honestly don't
I'm so tired mentally, spiritually, emotionally and physically
So tired.....

You know what I've figured out, I think I'm a pussy. that's why
Maybe after going direct, I should just push and tell them "I really wanna fuck you"

God Bless Your Soul
JimBeam